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Jury Duty Terrifies Me

Posted by January 17th, 2012

It is 8:30am and I am sitting in the jury lounge to see if I will be called to serve as a juror for the District Court of Montgomery County.  My stomach is in knots, not only because I have a huge amount of work to do and this is a kind of crummy week to be missing time at the office, though that is definitely part of it.  The knots also are not only because today is my 13 year old daughters last day of Chemotherapy for Hodkin’s Lymphoma, though that is certainly a part of it as well.  But the elephant in the room –  the bloody and incredibly sad elephant – is Patty Rebholtz.  I’m thinking of Patty and really, really, not wanting to hear my number called.

In December of 2001 I was working as a web designer at the ABC affiliate television station in Cincinnati, a position I had held for about three years.  I was summoned for Jury duty and reported as ordered.  Though I was 34 years old, I’d never served on a Jury and I was kind of excited.  Also, I was young enough that an excuse to get out of work for a day or two was more than welcome.

I was in the first group called to “Voir Dire,” a process where the lawyers on both sides ask questions to determine whether they are comfortable with you serving on the jury for their case.  Through this process we were able to glean a thumbnail sketch of the case, and it was certainly not what I was expecting.  It was a murder case; A murder case dating back to four years before I was born.

On steamy August night in 1963, someone strangled 15 year old Patty Rebholtz and then crushed her head with a fence post in a vacant lot across the street from her boyfriend’s house in a sleepy Cincinnati community that, at that time, was a stone’s throw from farmland.  Patty, a cheerleader, had been at a mixer at the local community center and was killed while walking alone after leaving the dance.  Her boyfriend Michael had not gone with her to the dance.

I was kind of excited at the prospect of being involved in such an interesting case.  That the defendant, a now 54 year old Michael Wehrung, was a name known to me as the owner of a well-known Cincinnati roofing company only added to the intrigue.  I really wanted to get on the jury, but I was pretty sure they would eliminate me during Voir Dire since I worked for a local television station.  A television station which, not only reported heavily on the case at the time, but whose star reporter had served as a witness.

Since the story continues, it’s fairly obvious that I did end up being selected for the jury and the case began the next day.

It turns out that I’m really just not cut out for murder trials.  It lasted a bit more than a week and every day was an exercise in boredom, horror, and intense sadness.  I came to really value those times of boredom.  The sadness of it all was crushing.

It was in that courtroom I discovered that, though I’ve always enjoyed horror movies, that actual autopsy pictures make me faint.  To be honest, I didn’t actually lose consciousness, but it was a close thing many times.  I spent most of the time we were reviewing the photos and film trying to focus on a point between two clouds outside the window behind the television screen and trying by sheer force of will to keep the white haze around the edges of my vision from completely taking over.  Honestly, that’s my clearest memory of the whole thing: those clouds and the panes of the windows leading out of this totally awful world I’d found myself a part of.  Every time the 60-something Coroner in the films we were watching referred to Pattys “panties” I felt like I wanted to scream.  To this day I can’t stand hearing that word.  Seriously, if you are a person who uses that word, I beg you to stop.

Now, ten years later, reading the news reports of the trial it all seems so clear cut.

  • The investigators at the time were absolutely positive that Wehrung had killed Patty.
  • They had her blood on his pants and Michael had acted very strange after Patty’s body had been discovered.
  • She had gone to the dance against his wishes while he stayed home and played ping-pong with friends because he was jealous
  • She had called him just before leaving the dance to, allegedly, go break up with him.
  • Patty was found literally across the street from his house.
  • When she didn’t get home that night, Michael and Mel (Patty’s older brother, home from college) drove around looking for her.  Michael went home after fifteen minutes while Mel continued driving all night long.
  • The next day Michael got up, saw the commotion across the street, said “it’s Patty,” and went back to bed.
  • There was blood on his pants.
  • He confessed.  Seriously, he confessed.

All of it seems so obvious now, and I wasn’t surprised then and would not be surprised today at anyone surprised that we didn’t convict him.  But at the time things were not clear cut at all:

  • The DNA evidence we were promised in opening statements never appeared.  In fact we never heard of it again after the trial started.  This wasn’t the only thing the Prosecutor said we’d see that we didn’t.
  • We never even heard conclusively that the blood on Michael’s clothing was Patty’s type.   The written record of that result was lost.
  • The blood on his pants was a very small spot.  It seems like there would be a lot more.
  • The confession had come after a very long interrogation without a lawyer or parents present and was something along the lines of “I guess my other self did it.”  The prosecution argued that this was a statement that he had killed Patty, but could easily have been a case of being incredibly tired and told over and over again that you did something: “Well, it wasn’t me…so it must have been another me.”  Welcome to “reasonable doubt.”

And there was more:

  • Another kid playing on the street that night had seen a strange teenager with Elvis hair and glasses walking down the street shortly after Patty did.
  • The evidence was very poorly stored and a flood years ago had damaged Patty’s clothes pretty badly.
  • Many of the people working on the case had died and much of their recorded statements were ruled inadmissible by the judge.   A ruling that I still don’t quite understand and feel that a more savvy prosecutor would have gotten in to evidence.
  • And finally, no one saw Michael go out or come back.

There’s really no reason this should have been a part of my life, or my fellow jurors lives at all.  Nearly all of this was known back in 1963 and the police were about to arrest Michael when, in a midnight ruling, a juvenile court judge had made him a ward of the court and sent him away to school, stopping the arrest set to go down the next day and effectively shutting down the entire investigation.  The police had no other suspects, they were positive it was Michael.  It wasn’t gone into much at trial, but I suspect that Judge acted unethically.

I’m fairly sure that, had I been on a jury that got to hear this evidence back in 1963 – A jury able to see the undamaged evidence and hear that the blood type on Michael’s clothing matched Patty’s – that we would have convicted him.  But as it was, we had to let him go.   Even given all this, I was unwilling to return a verdict of not-guilty until the very end of two days of deliberation.  As I recall there were three of us that were positive Michael Wehrung had killed Patty Rebholtz.  But in the end we had to agree that time had done too much damage to the state’s case:  That there was certainly reasonable doubt.

As reported in the paper at the time:

“Some jury members wept after the verdict and all seemed tired. The seven women and five men in the jury received the case shortly before 12:30 p.m. Wednesday and deliberated until 9 p.m. that day. They returned Thursday at 9 a.m. and announced their verdict about 2:15 p.m.”

I was one of those jurors who wept when the verdict was read.  It was an incredibly difficult experience that I won’t repeat again.  Seriously, if I get called to a case and it turns out to be anything involving serious harm or death, I’m out.  I refuse.  Forget it.

I was sad to read recently that Mel Rebholtz, Patty’s older brother, died a couple of years after the trial and only three days after the anniversay of his sister’s death.  It was really him that kept the case alive after so many years and I truly regret not being able to give him what he thought he needed to move past his sister’s murder.

I think about my experience as a juror in that case and have really mixed feelings about it.  It was a great responsibility, one that far too many people have also shouldered.  I hope that we did the right thing.  I believe that putting the burden on the state to prove beyond a reasonable doubt is correct.   I also think that we were correct in ruling “not guilty” even when some of us really though that might not be completely true.  The evidence is the evidence and we did what was right by the evidence.  Reasonable doubt is a really tough thing.

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Leonard Bernstein Conducting the Final Moments of Mahler’s Symphony No. 9

Posted by October 14th, 2011

“It is terrifying, and paralyzing, as the strands of sound disintegrate … in ceasing, we lose it all. But in letting go, we have gained everything.”

-Leonard Berenstein – who died eleven years ago today – commenting on Mahler’s 9th, the ending of which this video shows him conducting fearlessly and with quite remarkable emotion.

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Goodbye Brian Lanker (1947-2011)

Posted by March 15th, 2011

I’ve known Brian for nearly as long as I’ve been alive; certainly as long as I can remember. He and my dad worked together at the Topeka Capitol Journal beginning when I was around 4 years old. When Brian and his family moved out to Oregon it was due to his encouraging dad to interview at the Eugene Register Guard that we relocated as well, undoubtedly completely changing the direction my life ended up taking.

Thanksgivings at the Lanker house and Halloween with Brian playing the part of “Mogo” and “terrifying” the many kids that gathered each year at the Newnham’s house remain among the best memories I have. Brian’s eye for beauty and love for life were evident in the art he created and the food he loved. Brian and Lynda’s kitchen is still my favorite I’ve ever been in.

While his book “I Dream a World, Portraits of Black Women Who Changed America” may be his best known work, for me I’ll always treasure the autographed poster of Paulina Porizkova that he gave me after shooting the 1984 swimsuit issue for Sports Illustrated as well as the accompanying story of dinner with she and husband Ric Ocasek (no way!!!). Years later I was able to relay the story back to Ric when I met him at CBGB while on tour with my own band. He remembered the dinner with Brian and laughed when I presented a picture of myself in drag, signed, for him to give his wife as a thank-you from 16-year-old me.

I’m very sad to hear of Brian’s death this past Sunday and would have dearly loved to be able to see him just one more time. Thankfully my own kids got the opportunity to jump all over him (well, Rowan did most of the jumping) five years ago during a trip back to Eugene. My thoughts are with Lynda, Julie, Jackie, and Dustin. Love to you all. Goodbye Brian.

NYTimes look back at a truly amazing talent: http://tinyurl.com/6gyl2hd

Epson Promotional Video featuring Brian

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My First Five Songs

Posted by February 9th, 2011

There were five records my parents have had for as long as I can remember: Tommy (The Who), Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band (The Beatles), Chrysalis (Chrysalis), After the Gold Rush (Neil Young), and Bridge Over Troubled Water (Simon and Garfunkel). So here are my favorite songs off each of them:

Dr. Root’s Garden – Chrysalis

Don’t think for a second that these people are not very strange.

Don’t Let it Bring You Down – Neil Young

One of the most beautiful songs ever. Even when I was three I knew that.

A Day in the Life – The Beatles

Fours years and eight albums after their 1963 debut. What the holy hell? My parents bought this just a couple of months before I was born. I’ve never not heard this record.

I’m Free – The Who

First I’d heard of drugs, sex, pinball, and cults. I wonder if two years old was a bit young…nah. Though Uncle Ernie totally freaks my kids out today.

The Boxer – Simon and Garfunkel

I have absolutely no idea what I though this song was about when it was released (I was four). I’m not entirely sure I do now.

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Testing New Thingy

Posted by January 11th, 2011

I just installed the Wordbooker plugin on my blog and am testing to see what happens over on the Facebook side when I publish a new post. Probably fucking break everything.

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CNN Loves Tots, And It Creeps Me Out

Posted by January 23rd, 2009

The word “tot” doesn’t give me the heebie-jeebies all by itself (not like, say, “linoleum,” or “panties”), but it seems like CNN has developed quite a fetish for the use of the word. I suppose it’s to save headline space and help make their lists of links look nicer by preventing lines from wrapping, but it just seems out of place in nearly every case. Used less frequently, and to slightly less consternation on my part is the word “kin.”

Neither of these words seem appropriate to the types of stories they are used to promote. They seem to convey a sense of informality, or even condescension, that is rarely appropriate to the content of the story.

Here are some examples that make my stomach turn in the way it used to every day working for a television station:

  • Tot who died on Disney ride had bad heart
  • Missing tot’s trail goes cold after three months
  • Tot had heart sticker on mouth
  • Tot mom meant to kill!
  • Twister kills two mothers protecting kin
  • Buffett: Tax my kin, please (not surprisingly, Buffet did not actually say “kin”)
  • Kidnapped soldier’s kin: Stop the killing

And a whole shitload more from google.

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First Posting With ScribeFire

Posted by September 21st, 2008

That nonsense with the Facebook-Wordpress integration was a total bust, so here’s a neat little Firefox add-on called ScribeFire that purports to post to my blog.? Wonder it this shiny new marvel of Internet wisdom will actually work.

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P and Marty

Posted by September 10th, 2008

P went to Liberty with my mom to visit my Grandmother Marty at the end of the summer. She took our camera with her and took a bunch of really cool pictures. I love seeing how P sees the world and what she things of as worthy of recording. Everything from door handles on a rental car to the shadows on Marty’s courtyard. This is not one of her pictures, rather it was taken by my mom.

From P’s Pictures in Liberty

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Couldn’t You Wait

Posted by February 13th, 2008

I was visiting my friend John’s MySpace page a minute ago and saw that he has posted a trailer for a documentary about one of my favorite bands from Seattle, Silkworm. Halfway through the trailer they start talking about Michael’s death. I hadn’t even known he had died.

It was a little more than two years ago when, apparently, his car was hit by a woman speeding and trying to kill herself. Michael was a great drummer with – as I recall – an amazingly sweet personality and no pretension. That was rare in the 90s rock world of Seattle.

I remember standing to the side of the stage at the Off Ramp watching him play. Coincidentally – after posting just an hour or so ago about smiling rock musicians – I remember him smiling shyly as he played. Man, he really hit the drums hard.

I’m sorry he’s gone and my thoughts go out to his family and the rest of Silkworm. Cheers, Michael.

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